Yes It Is!!

So it is the first day of the New Year, I haven't posted forever! I think it is a good feeling. A New Year { new start} , we will move on Monday { new place} don't know what is ahead { new experiences}. I'm ready for NEW! I am looking forward to all of the above. I feel kinda of an anxious calm, how that for an oxymoron?

No New Year resolutions for me! I'm not setting any expectations. My goal this year is to have a calm,relaxing,soothing,enjoyable year. I am going to be good to myself and make sure hubby is the same. This is going to be a healing year for me. I have been wound up so tight I have felt like I was going to pop any minute. It is time for me to stop talking the talk and walk the walk, let go let God, kay sura sura,go with the flow,exhale, well you get the point!

So without further ado, I'm going to go and do some knitting and spin for a while today, may take a nap (not really can't sleep in the day) but might sit and watch a movie.

Hope you all have a great New Years day and many more to follow!

Moving Moving Moving!

So I know it is right before the holiday, but seeing that we don't want to think about it, I'm not writing about it either! But I will take this time to wish you and your family's a wonderful Christmas.
I have been running between SC and NC all week and I am tired. It's been awful weather up north, foggy,misty,wet, it's like I'm in Oregon again ! In SC it's been sunny, warm, nice! I hope this isn't normal for NC, I don't like to many grey days!! Although Randy's work has been going good, so that is encouraging.
We are running reallllllly slim as far as finances for the move so I am selling my knitting machine. It really is a beauty, I put adds on the lists and will get around to putting pictures up on here probably tomorrow. It's a electronic Singer 840 with all the goodies. I am the second owner, the first made some samples and a sweater or two and stuck it away! I got it, made a sweater and stuck it away! Well now I need the money and the room, and may as well face it, I'm not going to take the time to learn this! I did the same thing with my sock machine :( So if anyone is interested in details, email me and I will send pictures and details! I'm asking 1450.00 including shipping in the continental US. I have all the original boxes! If that is out of your range, shoot me a price, I need to sell it!!!
So now down to funner things :)
We should be up here totally around the 5 th of January. I have been painting the little trailer up on the lot and trying to get it cleaned up. It really had been let go and is a mess, and of course with funds tight, it's mainly elbow grease for me. But that's okay, it's lookin good! I am putting some wall paper in the my dyeing kitchen, I got it at the re store, habitat for humanity, for 1$ a double roll!!! I love that store! I also got some miss mixed paint at Lowes for 5$ in Lavender and some off white. So the wall paper is off white back ground, with very light foliage and butterflies in lavender. Cupboards are off White, doors lavender, trim on walls lavender. Hubby kinda looked at it and was surprised, I told him it was my dyeing kitchen! It's got taupe colored carpet that is fairly new and in good shape, but the kitchen, baths and laundry YIKES!!!! We are taking out the 2 baths, putting in a 1/2 bath and turning the other into a walk in storage for fleece. The laundry will have a washer for fleece, but then my freezer will be in there too, with more shelves. Not quite sure what we are doing with the floor, probably vinyl tiles or something after we get up there and things ease up. In the dining area I'm going to put my sewing machine, Ironrite, and quilting stuffs. Then fiber prep , then living room full of looms! Front bedroom will be a small wood shop for hubby, after all he needs room to make my hackles and combs :)) Will move the wall in the front room to expand and keep the very back bedroom for storage. It's nice to have a distraction this time of year.
My old dogs have been having one heck of a time up here! The back yard is sloped, poor guys hind ends don't work well anymore and when they start down they keep going! Then down the butts go and they can't get up. Poor things, you would think they would not go down the hill!
We are out in the boonies here and it is Deer hunting season, this morning there were shots everywhere! I was afraid to let the dogs out for fear they would be mistaken as a Deer! At the far end of the property is a corn field so I would imagine the deer go there to eat.
We have had such a nice group on the handpreparedfiber group. Everyone is so considerate and full of projects to share. It's been so fun. I was worried that it would feel like a burden trying to host a group, but I love it! I don't think I would do it again, I think one is enough, don't want to push my luck, don't know if I would get such a nice group again!!
Don't really have pictures to post at this point, need to go and read all the blogs I watch, haven't had time for that yet either. Can't wait to get back to my normal life:)

I'm Gonna Start a Tie Shawl

I have had such a hard time just looking at all the Bunny!! I couldn't keep my hands off it so I keep thinking about a gazillion projects I could start with it. I know I need to do some blending and put some on my Etsy, but once in awhile I like to do something for me first. Which sounds kind of funny when I write it as I don't keep much for myself anyway! The Bunny will make the yarn a bit fuzzy so I didn't think a Lacy pattern would be the best choice, I happened to think of the Danish Tie shawl I had seen at Dorothea's site and decided that would be the ticket! She really has some great patterns, her site is under the pattern section on my blog page. Then I couldn't decide about color. I really wanted some Shetland in the mix somewhere. I had some light grey I could get to so out it came.Then I have all the Alpaca I had dyed, it only made sense to start blending. I love pastels and blending it this way really muted the colors, I am please with the results. The pics don't show the color as good as I would like. It is a very light Lavender and a Apricot.

This is the pattern I am going to use. The third color is going to be a Teal color, hopefully I will get some blended today to see how it is going to look. You really wouldn't believe how soft this is, I am going to use singles I think depending on what it tells me when I start to spin :)

I also took my spinning wheels apart yesterday and cleaned, dusted and dressed each of them so they are all happy to spin for an other 6 months or so.

Hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving!

Why Thanksgiving Once a Year?

So I've been thinking, I find since I have been blogging I actually spend more time thinking :) Why is it that I start thinking about what I am thankful for the week of Thanksgiving? It's not that I don't thank the Lord everyday for the things he does for me , it's just that I don't take the time to think about the big things. So today I have been thinking, if I had to narrow it down to one thing that I am overwhelmingly thankful for what would it be? I think that this year it is that I am slowly moving on thru my grief of Jeffery. I have had a problem with the idea "moving on". It has felt like everytime I let myself think that, I was leaving behind Jeffery. I am now starting to realize that moving on is now taking on a new meaning for me. I am accepting that he isn't here anymore, I have my memories and he will always be in my heart. What I am moving on from isn't Jeffery, it is my grief. Believe me when I say, that is a good thing. What a relief it is to have that horrible cloud only over me once in a while. Not to feel the hole in my gut when I think of him, but to get a smile. To be able to forget, even for a moment the loss I have had. To get excited about my life and not feel that guilt. To go to sleep at night and not have the tears as I say good night to him. To have my husband look at me and not see the sadness in my eyes most of the time. To really realize that he is much happier than I at this time and not begrudge him that. To not look at the chair in the living room he always sat in and start to cry, but have a smile as his legs were so long he looked funny in the other ones ;) To forgive his wife for being so hurtful, instead of letting my grief turn to hatred towards her. To realize there is a little pocket in my mind I can put my grief and have more of a choice when I take it out when I feel the need. To be able to listen to another mom that has experience the same loss and let her have her grief instead of turning it into mine. I am beginning to realize that although grief is something I will never get rid of, I can not let it consume me, I have that choice. It has never felt like a choice, it has felt like a sentence. There is life after death, in more than the way I have always thought. Thru Jeffery's death I have found God has shown me a special purpose in my life. I don't know if I would have found it otherwise. Everyone has a special purpose, maybe that was God's plan. I can certainly question that plan, and not like it and will never understand it. I have to trust in him that it is the best plan. So I will make use of the purpose he has shown me, as it would be a huge disservice to Jeffery to not. So I am thankful this year in a sorrowful way, but thankful none the less for the way God has shown me I can get thru this with his love and help. That he has put a new challenge in front of me that I will pursue with his help and guidance to the best of my ability. Pray that he will continue to give me the courage and strength to live the rest of my life as a example to other people who have experienced the type of loss I have experienced, that with his help, you can get thru anything he puts in front of you.

So last but not least! I want to thank all of you, for all the hours of enjoyment, the support, all the learning and sharing I have gotten from everyone that has posted on my blog, let me participate on the lists and become my "puter friends".

Happy Thanksgiving to all of you!!