It's Almost Worse

I know 2 years ago this evening, Jeffery was hit by a car and died.It makes it worse, that now ahead of time, I know what happened before it did. This is probably one of the worst night of my life. I so remember the call I got tomorrow morning of what had happened. I don't want to, but I do. I guess now that I have had way too much wine my hope is , I have had too much to drink to remember, I haven't, I do.